I always had this thought of planning on what I want to do before I die/old etc but I never really wrote it down somewhere. Not even on a book, diary or a piece of paper. So I think it would be interesting to write down each and every one of it, not in any particular order. Like every time I think of something that I MUST do or TRY, I will write it down here or in my blogs. Maybe when I forget about this small simple meaningful things, it would help me to remember and motivate me in the future/ life ahead reading it :)

the FUN stuff:

1. #1 - I want to meet REAL LIFE PANDA (and touch it if I could) at least ONCE in my life :) 

I loveeeeeeee panda so much! its tooo cute >_<

• #2 - I wanna try out all the ROLLER COASTER in the world! (would be fun esp with friends :D)

• #3 - I want to try BUNGEE JUMPING (even though I might puke in public or scream my heart out again) 

• #4 - I want have a scuba diving license and go SCUBA DIVING. (All this while, I only went to snorkeling).

will add more later.

LOL thats like the edited lyric, my version of "nevershoutnever" song. Bahaha! I change it to describes what actually DID happened in my life for this past few. weeks. I've been through hard times (hell), I've been happy (heaven) and I've seen a GHOST (okay not directly but I did experienced a scary ghostly incident!).

The real song is this:

"I've been to Heaven, I've been to hell..

I've been to Vegas and God knows where,

But nothing feels like home..."

- I love you more than you'll ever know, NeverShoutNever

I've been going through up and downs a lot lately. This past few weeks every is unpredictable and full of surprises (good and even bad ones!). Too many things happen till I don't know where to start and what to write. Umm but all I could think of is the major things that happen that really give me impacts in someways.

The very bad news of the month - HELL, my baby Cino had DIED. Yes he's already DEAD. my veryy first baby is gone, leaving me the chance to see him grew up. I supposed to be telling this earlier since he died like 3weeks ago but I feel really miserable. I don't even feel like talking bout it. He even died in really sad way. He got seizure!  I never thought animals could even get seizure. Anyways, I cried for 2days straight since the night he died. (he died at 10.40pm) on thursday night. I end up looking like a panda with bloated eyes for the rest of the weekend. This really surprised me like hell. Cino seem really healthy the night before that. He accompanied me to do my assigments till around 4am. He seem really hyper running around the living room. I got really freak out on the next day when I got back from class at 6pm, he was lying in his cage. And when I touch him, he was shaking and lying. I called everyone to asked for the nearest vet. When I reach the vet with my friends i was already crying like shit. The doc couldn't do much to save him, though he did gave an injection. But I guess that wasnt enough to save him, since he died that night. The rest of the day was so full of dramas. Me taking care of Cino while crying like lunatic till his very last breath. Thank god, my friends was keeping me accompanied that night. Next day, went back home with the corpse lol. My sister helped me to bury him. May you R.I.P Cino. ILU and I'm so sorry for not being the best mother and taking a good care of you (though I really think I did my VERY BEST).

I don't think I'm going to get a new pet, or any kind of pet for awhile. I'm kinda like umm phobia? Its like, I don't want this kind of incident to happen again. And I cant afford of losing anything I love so bad again eventhough my friend and cousins was trying to get me a new pet.  Anyways thats bout one of the things that happen this past weeks.

Weird stuffs also did happen this past few weeks - another HELL. The one incident that bother me most it the mysterious ghostly incident that I had experienced. And what makes it even weirder and me curious is  that  it happened the NIGHT before Cino died. I stay up late with Cino accompany (more like running here and there around the living room) when me doing my assignments till 5am+. and this shit happen around 4am+. It was also weird when Cino was actually out of his cage by himself before that. I didn't even let him out. So okay, I was doing my work alone, in the living room, on table near the sliding door of our apartment's balcony when suddenly... I heard something. It sounded scary like "wooo...wooo...wuuuu" you know like stupid sound that people like to do when they act like a ghost? At first, I thought it was the sound of the wind, like when its windy and the wind blow soo strong till it make a weird scary sound? And then I keep hearing it and it sound different. This time, I though it was a dog making the sound, umm like barking? but there's no dog around. and It  wasn't even windy (the curtain wasn't even moving at all!) and I closed the sliding door tight. I tried to ignore the sound and continue to do my work but that stupiddd scary sound didn't STOP and even worse the sound is getting more and more clear and nearer. Its like I could hear it very clearyy near me but in low tone and that's when I realize "eerkkk that sounds like a women crying." It sounded like a women sobbing and crying! 

(okay WTF this image is kinda disturbing. WTH am I scaring myself?) 

I look at my laptop and it's like 4.30am and who the hell is crying at this time?? and I just realise something stupid, I was in the 4th floor! Yes, my apartment is in the 4th floor so its impossible for someone to cry so near outside my balcony. And then I started to feel so cold, goosebumps all over my body. I don't even have the guts to pull the curtain and see what's outside my balcony as I could feel presence of something outside it. I even notice cino was staring at the balcony, facing the sliding door (before that I already put him inside the cage)  I ran quickly into my room where Mimsy was sleeping and the lights was on. I can't think of anything. I waited for awhile in my room, and when I calm down I went back outside to the living room (eventhough I don't really want to go back but I had to force myself cause my assgmnt wasnt done yet). Thank god the sound had dissapear. It scared the hell out of me for few days and I'm not even the type that get scared easily.

Anyways, WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SOUND? Is it a GHOST? Most of the people that I told about this, said its possibly a ghost and some of them believe that Cino's dead got something to do with this incident (he died the very next day). The vet doc said its possibly because he got really scared or shocked which is why he got seizure. Maybe this incident scared him? hmmm or is it just coincident. 

Other than that, I've been having trouble couping up with my studies. I've been having less sleep cause I had to spent time doing assignments. I have really big problems wih organizing my work and schedule. It really bothers me how in almost every class I will fell asleep, though its not really 100% my fault since the lecturers themselves are veryyy boringggg and I don't understand the hell that they're teaching. blehh  Even when I sat in the very front row in the middle of the class straight in front of the lecturer's face, I can still feel asleep without even realizing it. I'm really worried right now cause my mid term test is really close, and there's bunch of quizes that I have to gone through before finals (and its already started). I still have no idea what actually am I learning or why the hell am I learning all this when I don't have any interest at all in some of the subjects. Mass media research is totally shits, marketing, consumer behaviour bla3 is all craps and not to mention boringgg! *sigh*

Anyways, not much interesting story to tell. So better stop here before I bored you guys to death. 

*can't stop wondering whether rabbit can see ghost? or does ghost even exist? 

but I am really confident that that thing definitely DON'T look cute like this or Casper that friendly ghost.